February 18, 2020 Mental Landscape

This was my mental landscape this morning:

I have days like this sometimes, when things seem unclear, and the future looks murky and dark. I struggle at those times with a loss of confidence and a sense of dread. Aging has a lot to do with it, I think. It’s all well and good to say “Getting old isn’t for sissies,” until you realize that you are, in fact, a sissy. But these are the very moments that call out most strongly for walking by faith and not by sight. I grab for the comfort of old friends like Hebrews 11:1, which says “Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” The very point of faith is that we can be sure of what we hope for in Christ. The things that I only see dimly now will one day be made clear. Until then, I will say with the psalmist: “I have set the Lord continually before me. Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.” Yes, and amen.

I’ll probably delete this in the morning.