I have to admit that I did not see this coming when I had total knee replacement surgery: I have, apparently, forgotten how to walk. I noticed it as I started walking again when the knee was stronger. My gait felt awkward and my opposite hip hurt. I chalked it up to adjusting to the new knee. A thought surfaced: what if this is the new normal? I prayed about it and tucked it away.
Whate’er my God ordains is right
His holy will abideth
When you take a walk, you don’t usually think about the action of walking, anymore than you think about breathing. Your legs know what to do and everything else follows. It’s like riding a bike, right? You are in automatic mode and are free to converse, think, look around, take photos. But now I was analyzing every step. Heel, toe, heel toe…that’s right. But that inside pain on the upper right thigh – did I pull a muscle? And the pain on the outside of the hip? What’s that about? My six-month post-surgery appointment was coming up.
I will be still whate’er He does
And follow where He guideth
The Physician’s Assistant gave me a glowing report concerning my knee: everything is healing up as it should and the bend is excellent. You wouldn’t think you could be proud of being able to bend your knee well, but think again. Now, how about this hip pain when I walk? She asked a few questions, did some manipulations and said, “Well, sometimes this can be just an adjustment to walking with a good knee again as you unlearn the way you were compensating for the bad knee before.” Yay! “But in your case, I think it looks more like hip arthritis, which might not be helped by therapy. Good news, though – a hip replacement surgery is much easier to recover from than knee replacement surgery!” Oh. “Let’s set up another appointment in a month just in case the therapy hasn’t helped and we want to look at some options.” All righty then!
He is my God, though dark my road
He holds me that I shall not fall
I gave birth to twins many years ago, an emergency C-section at 33 weeks. Twin blessings! But the delivery was filled with tension and the recovery was difficult. Our oldest son, who was five years old, was so thrilled with having twin brothers that he suggested that I should have triplets next. You see where I’m going here. I was not prepared to start thinking about another replacement surgery in the middle of recovering from the knee surgery. But as I was grappling with this new and unwelcome vista before me, the words of a hymn came floating into my head “Whate’er my God ordains is right.” Oh, my friends, it makes all the difference in the world to leave it all to Him who knows and loves me best. He is the perfect Father; I have complete confidence that His plan, whatever it is, is for my good and His glory.
And so to Him, I leave it all
And so to Him, I leave it all
I’ll probably heel/toe this post to the delete button in the morning.
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